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| From : Thomas J. Ayers (TJ) | ||||||||||||||||||||||||
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I am a Charismatic/Spirit�Filled/Inter-Denominational/Non-denominational/God led-God fed/Baptize Born-again Believer. I am a divorced 54 year young male; approximately 5�6�; 210 lbs.; thinning black and gray hair, brown eyes. I like camping, cooking, fishing, hiking, walking, some yard work, computers, music, TV, and quite time. My favorite: color is blue, music, praise and worship, animal is stuff and cuddly, movies are western, food is steaks and seafood, and I prefer living in the country. I am a Phlegmatic Choleric � Introvert. My father was a third generation Texan and mother was Italian born in Sicily. I am the middle of two sisters. I have four children and three grandkids, none of which are living with me. I was born in Houston, Texas; moved to East Texas, Eureka, Mont.; West Texas, Philippines, Scottsdale, AZ.; Philippines, South Texas; Mexico; Panama City, Fl.; Belize; Philippines; Central Texas; Hill country, Texas; East Texas; Lampe, Mo. | |||||||||||||||||||||||
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Prior to November 18, 1979, I was a workaholic, alcoholic and prescription drug addict, I �knew I was God" The sun rose and set on me, my domain, and I was in total control of my seven corporations. Friendship and love were bought, as well as anything else. Life was not easy for me from the very beginning, I went from age six to adulthood, having no childhood. Being the last child, I was the worthless one who would never amount to anything. Raped at age six by cousins and at age seventeen by three homosexuals. At age seven, I believed that God had cursed me and was sending me to hell and there was nothing that would prevent this from happening. I was married at sixteen, divorced at age 32, twice in mental hospitals and with a number of counselors. I went from a $250,000 per year income to bankruptcy after my divorce and was not able to see my children for about eight years. On November 18, 1979, I walked into an Assembly of God church in Buffalo, Texas. I was drunk and high on prescription drugs. At the time, I did not know why, but now I do. Within fifteen minutes, I was at the altar asking God to forgive me. I didn't want to die and go to hell. While weeping and crying out to God to save me, I received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. The next morning I purchased my first Bible and completely read through it in three days. I was baptized by immersion on November 21, 1979. While being baptized the Lord revealed himself to me in a very special way, for the first time in my life and ever since I have felt the unconditional love of God and that there is purpose to my life. I went to Christ for the Nations for three months and then to the Jimmy Swaegart School of Theology for three months. God picked me up and sent me to the Philippines for nine months. During that time, I surrendered not only myself, but also all I had to Him. I prayed a hedge of thorns over my family three times a day. During this time, God taught me how to truly forgive, love and to see people through Him. Over the next few years He sent and provided for me my education and training, so that I could serve Him by helping His people. Since 1990, God gave me a vision with a mission purpose and significance. I have had a strong compassion, burden and heart's desire to help adults, children, adolescents, single adults and to repair marriages, working in a ministry with a mission to serve God's church, Christian fellowship and/or organization. However, I will serve God doing whatever He has for me to fulfill God's mission, vision and purpose in my life. | |||||||||||||||||||||||
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One may say you are not whole. Another will sense you are not complete, because you don�t have someone praying | for or with you. Some even justified it my saying, �God did not intend for man to live alone, it is not good.� Others are trying to get you married. Many are denied their calling to ministry. You are the fifth wheel, a threat to marriages and the local church body. Singleness is look upon as a disease and marriage is the cure. All are saying �there is something wrong with you.� A divorced/widow(er) single means: dreams, gold�s and ambitions brought to sudden halt. Trying to find out who we are, and a place in the community. A feeling of rejection and loneliness. Having our children make a choice or perhaps not being able to see them on a regular basic or even worse not seeing them at all. Having to leave a radio or TV on so you will not have to enter a quite house full of emptiness. That you are a failure. Not looking forward to holidays or special occasions, because lonesomeness creeps in. Not being able to share your life both good and bad with someone. Not having intimacy with another. Looking at statistics and realizing you could grow old without someone at your side or even worse someone who cares. Looking for a life long companion and having the fear you could fail again. Comparing everyone to the one who left you with hurts and wounds. You are like a side of hanging beef or even a tomato for others to look at and compare. All this and even more. A divorced/widow(er) single should means: That you are more that a conquer, you are made hold through Jesus Christ. That you are not a failure nor have you been rejected. God said, �I will put none of the diseases on you�, � Paul said, �I wish everyone could get along without marrying, just as I do. But we are not all the same. God gives some the gift of marriage, and to others he gives the gift of singleness� In everything you do, I want you to be free from the concerns of this life. An unmarried man can spend his time doing the Lord's work and thinking how to please him.� (1 Cor. 7:7-32 [NLT]). It becomes our choice on who and how we will serve �as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD." Where does it say in the Bible that you have to be married to be happy? Paul States: �But I say to the unmarried and to the widows: It is good for them if they remain even as I am; but if they cannot exercise self-control, let them marry. For it is better to marry than to burn with passion.� I wonder if any one ever asked Paul if he was getting tired of being single or denied him His mission for being single. I believe that Paul was to busy working for the Lord to worry about whether he was single or not. Now, don�t get me wrong I believe very strongly in marriage, I have some very good Christian friends that are married. However, marriage is not something that should be taken lightly. Singleness is not a disease nor is marriage the cure. I have been married before, and if God were to send the right helpmate along, I would do it again, but not without doing a few things different. I will not go through another divorce. I would rather live alone serving God, than to go through that pain again. I know that God has a mission, purpose and significance for each of us and we need to turn our lives over to him to receive His Glory for us. Were it not for His love I would not be here writing this letter right now. I know a void in my life has been filled that I have been trying to fill all my life. All I had to do is Seek first the Kingdom of God and all these things will be added. For too many years I lived my life for me and not for Jesus, and Jesus and I paid the price for that.
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